This is a new series I’m beginning. Everyday, I receive the most incredible emails from readers. It only makes sense to share some of the questions, and my answers, with all of you.
This [“What I miss from 135lbs ago” series] has me in tears. It’s just so easy to relate to, but at the same time I don’t see how you look so positively at the past 20 years of your life. I wish I could. I’m 18 years old- I look at pictures of the past 10 years of my life, pictures that used to make me laugh and brought back some of my best memories, and all I see is how over weight I was. I contemplated throwing them away time and time again, but I convince myself that one day I’ll appreciate those memories. For right now, they simply disgust me.”
I absolutely hear you. Seeing yourself big lets you know that something is or was
wrong, maybe something beyond just loving food too much. You know that.
But here’s the thing- you’re smiling in some of those big photos.
You also had some happy times in those years, too, right?
Big or not,
you formed friendships that now mean the moon to you,
you laughed so damn hard and loud your sides split open, or at least you thought they did,
you had the freedom to be in the precise moment of the picture, and not worry about food or losing or gaining.
Think of all the good things you are now, every little lovable thing about you
that each is,
in some small
of all that you’ve ever been.
Wishing you so, so many good things,